Hormonally Unbalanced

I partly blame it on pregnancy but I mostly blame it on being a mother. This last week has been extremely emotional for me. I think that it has been because this is my little girl's last week before she turns one. Jarron laughs at the thoughts that run through my head but I can't help it. Cayton just turned five and what I mostly thought about was that I only have 14 more years until he goes on a mission, goes to college, gets married and is gone. Jarron tells me that 14 years is a long time but the past five were gone in an instant and next year he starts kindergarten and I heard once they are in school time flies. What do you mean?? Time has already been flying. I recently read an article that talked about first time parents and the first child. Parents can't wait for their kid to start walking and talking and push for all the first time things to happen. I admit that I was like that and I was so excited for the "first times" but I realize how fast those moments are gone and childhood is over in the blink of an eye. If only I could keep them tiny forever. Kids grow up too fast as it is and before you know it they are walking out the door without a good-bye and talking back to you and that happens when they are only 2! That means that I have less than one more precious year with Bentley before she starts walking and talking. j/k. They are all precious years and it has taken me 5 years to understand, slow down and REALLY relish and take in the moments. I always thought that I was "taking in the moments" but I really wasn't. Bentley has been such a blessing at a HUGE time of need. Her personality is that of take your time, slow down and just laugh at everything. She has never rushed into anything so far whether it be rolling over, sleeping through the night, or standing. It only took me till the third child but I have no desire to push her after all she will learn someday which will be sooner then I want. Come May I will have 4 children, not in school yet, at home with me all day long and I will be the luckiest person in the world. My new life theme song is You're Gonna Miss This" by Trace Adkins and I don't even like country. I LOVE MY LIFE! My Heavenly Father has indeed blessed me beyond what I deserve but I'll take it!